If at First You Don't Succeed...

... hit it with a sledgehammer until you get it right.

But, seriously, I had to do some reconsidering over the last few days.  I went back to the staffing agency, but they decided that they didn't have anything for me right now.  No worries. I got a call from another agency that was having a job fair today.  I went right down and all I have to do is give them proof of my education, which is no problem, and pass a background check and a drug test and I'm all set.  If all goes well, I'll be working again by next week.

Yes, more warehouse work, but I doubt that it will be half as arduous as the one I worked on Monday.  Ouch!

I'll just be glad to be caught up on all of my stuff, bills, etc.  I know most of us know what it's like to have less than no money.

I've considered looking for work in my career field outside of the state.  I am apprehensive about doing this for a few reasons.  Most of which are selfish, but sometimes that cannot be helped.

Most importantly, if I do look for work outside my state, I wouldn't want to move that far away.  I did find a promising opportunity in Southern California, which would be nice on multiple levels not the least of which would be Raven being physically closer to her dad.  Not that he would care too much about that or make an effort to see her, but who knows.  I'm not inside his head.  But, I don't want to have to uproot Raven AGAIN if it doesn't look good.

Secondly, I would miss Falcon like no one else in the world.  He would go with me.  At least, not right now.  We've talked about this once before, and he was pretty clear that he wasn't going to stand in the way of me getting the career I wanted.  I am not quite sure how to take that.  Does he not really care that much about being with me, or does he live by the old cliche "If you love someone set them free...." etc.  I don't know for sure, but sometimes I don't think he is truly happy.  I'll have to talk to him about it one day.

Thirdly, I'm just scared, plain and simple.  I am afraid of succeeding.  I'm afraid of being successful.  What if I am?  For me, that's a scary thought.

And, right now, I don't have the money to move.  Why am I talking myself out of this?  I should be sending out as many applications/resumes as I can.  I know that most will not all me back simply because I am not local to them. These are entry level jobs I am talking about, so what really do I have to lose?

But, what if one does?  What then?  ARGH! It makes me feel like this sometimes:

I do know that I really need to touch up on my phone interviewing skills.  They suck like a Hoover vacuum cleaner right now. 

Otherwise, I believe I am over most of the depression and sadness for the time being.  When I get this way, I usually get my hair cut.  I need to do that again.  I had an appointment a few weekends ago, but couldn't keep it due to a personal emergency.  I really need to reschedule.  Especially before Raven goes back to school. She was also scheduled to get her hair done.  She wants it short.  So do I. 

Well for now I believe I will just keep on the path that I'm on.  Get caught up and start saving money for a possible move.  If I'm not moving out of state anytime soon for a career, then at the very least I'll be saving to move somewhere in town that is bigger than a one-bedroom.  Raven is really starting to ask when we are getting a bigger place so that she can have her own room.  I've been asking myself that same question.  I really want a room to myself so that I can just stay up reading or talking on the phone or whatever.  And, she needs some space of her own.

Wow, that really got off topic.  Sometimes, the best conversations I have are inside my own head.  I was just thinking earlier today about soylent green.  I was wondering where the heck it came from, etc, and Falcon is really knowledgeable about such things.  I asked him and he gave me the lowdown.  Ick... But, there it is.  I really need to watch that movie.  Well, one of these days....

Yeah... my mind wanders to some really interesting places....

I believe I did warn you guys up front, though, right?

My Hundred Hours Project

Greetings all of my faithful readers and then some!

I'm back this year after finally getting a computer that won't die in a month (knock on wood) so I bring you this.

 The Hundred Hours Project

Started by an acquaintance of mine and something that I feel is worthwhile in doing.  I encourage all of you to join in this wonderful project!

I have thought long and hard about what it is that I really want to do for my project.  Something that won't cost a lot of money and that I will have the time to invest 100 hours in. It could be anything, I know, but I want this project to have some sort of meaning for me and something that will be fun and last a lifetime and all of that jazz.

Okay, Onyx, so just what are you going to do for your project?  Well, I thought about learning to paint, learning to fence, take clogging lessons (which is on my bucket list and that's a whole other blog in itself!) and even taking piano or voice lessons again, but money is really tight and trying to learn from YouTube videos just doesn't cover it.  So, what I am going to do is something that I have already spent some time doing last year and a little bit the year before, if my memory serves (which it doesn't half the time, hence the reason I blog).

Drum roll please....

Kung Fu

Not just any Kung Fu, but Wing Chun Kung Fu.  This particular form of martial arts is mostly upper body oriented.  Very few kicks involved.  It is a great workout and really helps focus the mind.  I go here because the classes are donation based.  You pay what you think they are worth, or what you can afford.  The instructors are really nice.  The classes are in a laid back setting, but really focused.  The classes are usually smaller, less than ten people last time I went, and I like that because I don't do crowds very well.

Anyone who has seen Ip Man has seen this form of Kung Fu.  It is based on the life of the man who brought Wing Chun Kung Fu to the light, so to speak.

So, there you have it.  I'll be blogging on a more regular basis with updates to my 100 hours of Wing Chun Kung Fu throughout the year.  We'll see how it goes!

Feel free to forward this blog to friends or link it with your blog or whatever it is that they do these days.  I look forward to seeing how many people participate in this.  Also, feel free to comment.


Not mine, but a really good sketch of Wing Chun Kung Fu.

I'm so excited about this project!

I Know. It's Been a While... AGAIN!

I know it's been a while since I blogged about anything. Not too much has happened, but then again, a lot has. I suppose it would depend on how you look at it.

So, picture this....

A place where one could go during the day for the tastiest baked treats on the planet, prepared by the most awesome mad scien... I mean baker in the state. A place where one will find absolutely NO mainstream (Pepsi, Coke) products to drink, but rather a wide array of mixed nonalcholic drinks and what I lovingly call "microsodas". A venue to sing karaoke...A place where one can enjoy the adventures of the video game challenge, or a poetry and story night... even DJ dancing to various genres throughout the month.... a place where one can enjoy a party dressed in their Alice in Wonderland best or time warp with Rocky.....

All while never having to deal with the drunks or risk getting a DUI while going home.....

Now, I know there are a lot of people who think that they HAVE to have alcohol to have a good time, but what if you're underage? Yeah, well, that's where The Silent G comes in. All ages all the time to enjoy pretty much anything one can find in a regular bar and then some.

Now, The Silent G isn't open for business yet as it is still in the planning stages. Who am I kidding. It's been in the planning stages for about five years now. I have been dreaming of this for so long that I can almost taste it. My friend (the mad scie...baker) is excited about this, too. We've gone so far as to look at a few places, and I think that I'll be ready to open in the early spring.

How about your thoughts, opinions and whatnot. Constructive criticism is always welcome, but please don't downright knock my idea down. I can't stomach naysayers.... I know it is going to be a long, tough road, and one that may end in failure, but nothing ventured, nothing gained and all that.

I am looking forward to all the hard work and fun that this will entail. Sure, the economy is rough right now, but I also believe that this will be a great project. Let me know what you think!

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