What Do I Want to Be When I Grow Up? Who Knows...

I'm frustrated.  Frustrated with my life, with myself.  I know that I have to be patient, but that patience only goes so far.  I look at where I am and think to myself that I should have been so much further than this.  I have a part-time job that is less than that at the moment because heaven forbid that a single mom can get any help with early morning daycare and have their kids to school on time and be to work at a decent hour.  Without early morning care, I do not have the opportunity for the majority of the work that my company does.  And, working night is out of the question on most nights.

So, I am resigned to finding a new job that is more compatible with my life, such that it is.  Don't get me wrong.  I really enjoy the job that I have now.  I even just got a raise a few weeks ago, but if I don't get any hours, the money means nothing.  As of now, I am only scheduled for one day for the next three weeks.  I'm screwed.



I had applied for a job at the beginning of April.  I never heard back after I got the test results back.  Perhaps they found the candidates they were looking for.  I was #19 on the list, after all.  It could be that they will call me soon.  I can't wait forever.  I need to get my life in gear.  I'm not getting any younger.

So, I went on the job hunt again.  I know about the law of averages.  The trouble is that for every two hundred jobs I look at, I might find one that I fit their minimum requirements for.  I really want to put this degree to good use, and so far it has been worthless.  So far.... I am not completely condemning it. 

Speaking of which, I actually thought about going back to school for another degree.  I want to do something with this world.  I looked at several degrees at both TMCC and UNR.  But, who am I kidding?  The degrees that are interesting and fall within my interest require so much science that it isn't even funny.  I barely passed high school biology and had to be taken out of chemistry my senior year.  I ended up in study hall instead.  I guess it was better that than not graduate due to crappy grades.  I'm not a science-minded individual.  And, aren't I a little bit old to be thinking about pursuing another degree that is just going to put me deeper in debt?

But, back to the job hunt.  I did apply for a few jobs today.  Local ones even.  And, I got an email back already saying that I get to take the test for one of them.  Since it is the same company for which I applied in April, I can only assume that it will be a similar test.  I guess this will be the chance to improve upon my score.  Or, perhaps it will be a completely different test.  We can only wait to see.  Either way, I really need to land one of these jobs.  And, I know how it goes.  When I do finally find a job, I will get calls from all of the other places that I applied to.  Thank you, Murphy!

What I do know is that my strengths lay in being the behind-the-scenes person.  Such as on the phones.  I didn't hate my job at Teleperformance, but I also didn't like being yelled at.  I can take a lot, but that last call was just too much.  It isn't something I will ever forget.  I do know that I communicate better when I'm not right in front of someone, such as behind this keyboard for instance.  But, for the most part I know that I can do well in any one of these jobs that I have applied for.  I just need a bit of fortune to get it!

So, wish me luck, if it pleases you.  I could use all the help I can get at this point.